Hope you’re better, not bitter 💕

In my first relationship, I broke you
I tainted your heart with my actions
I meant no ill
But these words were your virus
My careless actions gave you a migraine
Now you push others because of your heartbreak
You taught me a lot
Looking back, I should’ve heeded
Tried to justify my behavior
A few arguments in which I was the aggressor
Can’t discount your heartache when I was the prominent player
Had my innocence
At times I played my cards with selfish persistence
Our good times were astronomical
Some even envied us – very comical
Though misunderstood,
Never fought to relieve your insecurities
Instead shunned you when you begged for clarity on my obscurity
My emotional language was more logic
The key to misinterpretation; we became lethargic
Unable to express the way you wanted
Tried to change me to fit your comfort
I was combative, so I left you
You suffered
You knew my heart wasn’t cold
My pride and flaws were tenfold
Fought to keep me cause you knew my value
Remained and resisted, got sucked dry like a vacuum
Failed to lock eyes
Two strong wills
Tied with one bill
When misunderstood
I start to care less
You always said your love was stronger
Convinced, you felt like I was an absent father
You had a mind that was narrow in perspective
Felt expression only came with one collective
I understood you more than you knew me
Instead of explaining, I chose a new me

Said less and let you build your assumptions
You weren’t the first, nor were you last with invalid presumptions
My fault was charging your hurt as sensitivity
Your wrong was taking my silence for a personal theory
My mouth was reckless; ignoring was my protection
It hurt more than intended

Maybe we weren’t compatible,
With some understanding, we could have amended
Shouldn’t have left you deserted in sorrow
You became possessive, thought I was entertaining tomorrow
My stubborn temperament refused to compromise in your favor
You made it your mission to fight for us
I caused the failed transmission; I know it pierced your guts.