Let me tell you about my Jehovah
First, let me spit out the ugly truth
Built by His perfection
Before I was in my mother’s womb,
Ordained this conception
He knew and loved me before I was a body
Never quit protecting
Grace was sufficient in pouring
The crown of favor remained
Dressed in strength
Blessed with wisdom
I met my capacity
We meet it during times of calamity
Hit a time when I needed prosperity
Unable to rely on society or my family
I faced the road where I entailed divine strength,
One beyond me,
Not located in humanity
I did not want God; He wanted me
I never sought after Him; He pursued me
My whole life ran away from His truth
Not because of Him;
My soul denies objective morality
Chased me as I ran,
Loved though I shamed,
Mercy, even in pursuing vengeance,
Healing when I was hurting;
Never gave Him gratitude
Nor even acknowledge the God of truth
Wicked by nature
Needed a savior
This mouth is reckless
Merely by Him – I am loved.
Never gave Him a reason
Every season was consistent
He lifted the veil; I faced my enemy
Faced the oppressor,
Comprehended the game,
Agenda was clear,
I was in the playground with my enemy
Dwelled in his camp, despite his hate for me
God does not need me; I need Him
Ne’er force,
Love is freely
Touched my heart
The world became sour
Lost all power
Inquired truth
And found Jesus
Always been a skeptic
A hand that held me, I was running from
The spirit that loved me, I profaned
Living word that protected me, I forsook
Doubt within me no longer coerced
Ignorance avoided love, peace, and power;
We all reach a point of weakness,
Who you seek determines your meekness
I never hated God nor doubted His existence
But never, did I-ever, wanna listen to Him
His will signified conviction
Refused to obey
I knew once I chose Him – change will-come roaring;
Unprepared,
Not ready to fight evil with good
Or practice forgiveness
Desired an eye for an eye;
True Christianity is not for the weak
Enjoyed doing me: smoke, drink, and party without conviction
Sex, pride, and money as world affliction
My pleasure was His pain
Subjective morality had me stubborn in my ways
My pride refused to seek His face
I assumed Christian folks were cheesy in displays
No lie though
Admired their obedience
Failed to fathom their diligence
I refused truth
Turned ear away
It hardened my heart within
He loved me so much that he allowed it
Never filled me
Temporary happiness was all it was
Eventually fizzled,
Saw the wave as a master controlling its puppets
Society became a cult
A method to make all the same
Women emulate one look, one body
Men seek one ego, one core
Never flew with the wave fully
Forever felt different but did not understand it
Informed I was distinct but never framed it
Today in His Kingdom, my identity is golden
Understood my character from the hands that formed it
Faith cancels fear
Chains now are broken!
Meeting Jesus was encountering peace
Formed a relationship
Religion played no part
Religion told me I could never be enough
Taught work, not faith
God said different
I will always fall short of His glory
His blood covers that
Meeting Jesus, I met joy and clarity
My entire life, I was selective,
I was born to select Him.
Once I accepted
Holy Spirit came and resurrected
Set me free from the hands of my enemy
Adopted into Royal Family
Once you taste the love of God, can no one top it
I was sprinting from the King that created the ground I-walked in
Old desires smashed like thunder
Met love, I could never wonder
Filled with peace despite the fire
Not perfect; Jesus, perfect intercessor
Falls do not hit the ground; His right-hand holds me under
Encountered the God that makes me speechless
And child dis-mouth could do wonder!
Discovered a void
This world couldn’t fill it
Jesus came and fulfilled it
Salvation is free
Just have to accept it
It cost Him His life
For pain I inflicted
His faithfulness won me
Loyalty is beyond me
Infinite ways instilled my flames
Blood runs through my veins
Ordains and sustains
God has no rival!
No equal!
Only knew imperfection; I struggled to fathom His perfection
Because of a hateful world struggled to let His love in
The greatest lie ever told,
What you let go of is not better than what you hold
He had a solution
Before, I had a problem
I have done it all
What didn’t I do?
I should’ve died in my ways
Reckless in my moves!
I was fearless in my sin
No bold in my win
I found my victory
He loved me when I was ugly
To Him be all the glory
Jesus Christ of Nazareth Is thee only!
